Regrets

                Regrets that I have are like the inner demons in my heart, constantly surfacing to haunt me, to create a wound in my heart, a wound that is constantly healed and reopened from time to time. It hurts so bad at times that it brings tears to my eyes just by thinking of them. These are the decisions that I made in my 18 years of existence which altered the course of my life, mostly in a bad way.
                It made me wonder, " if only i had done this", "if only I hadn't done that". I wish so badly that I could turn back the Wheels of Time and right the wrongs that I had done, the wrongs which had hurt the people around me and myself included. I would think, " maybe if i could rectify the wrongs then my life would be so much better". However, if one were to think about this, one would see a positive side to it. Each decision made alters the course of our lives and we do not know if the decision made would be for the better or for the worse. I may even have a worse life than this if I had chosen other actions. Sadly, this fact does not comfort me.
                Surprising how we tend to remember the bad things better than the good ones or is it just me.... I can still remember almost all the bad things in my life that I have done and yet I remember little about the joys that I experienced when I was young. "Why is that so?" I would wonder.  As I type this post, I can't help but feel a deep sadness for what could have been if I never did all those things. If only there was something that could be done to change all of these, if only I never chose to do all of these. Sigh.... if only....

Beauty Of The Soul

I should never have let you go. I should have done something about it. I should tried to keep you by my side. I should have told you about my true feelings earlier but I did not. This has been one of my regrets ever since. Whenever I dream of you, I could only get a fleeting glance of you. I could never seem to be able speak to you. When I woke up from those dreams, I would always wonder, why could I not master the courage to talk to you! There was once when I finally spoke to you in my dreams and that day was one of the happiest day I had. I might sound very desperate and all but that's the truth. You seem so perfect to me, beautiful on the inside and out. The beauty of your soul has captivated me. And yet, I fear that the darkness in my heart might corrupt my image of you. It may not be the time now and it may never be but know that I would be willing to spend the rest of my life with you. Hope that we may be able to share our lives together in the future. Haha, sounds so dramatic doesn't it. Haiz....

Welcome!!!

Haha, hi! This is my first time creating a blog so i'm quite new to this thing! One day i thought of creating a blog so now that it has been created, i don't know if i can maintain!! Haha! Hopefully! Anyway, just trying to post some stuff. If anyone has any great skin for my blog pls do let me know, thx! =) I think i'll just end here for now and see how this will go! Maybe it can help improve my English and typing skills haha!!